I get so much stress and shit from being at home. It hurts when people say that family will ALWAYS be there for you. And they wonder why I’m always out, why I always put my friends first. How can I put the people who bring me down the most first in my lives, as my number one priority? They don’t even listen to me or give me the chance to explain myself. You guys don’t even know how jealous I am of people who can be open with their parents, of those who have a sibling they can go to. It’s so tiring, crying over the same problem time after time and feeling so alone sometimes. I know that I’ll never have an honest and open relationship with them, and that any good times that we may have will only last for a small amount of time. It’s becoming more and more of a letdown; I’m always hoping that things will improve between us. But I guess some things just never change.